It's been a hell of a long time since I've written here.
I can't remember where I left off six months ago. No more silly names for people, as I can't remember who was who. It just feels necessary to tidy up around here and even off what loose ends I can.
My time as foreman of Olde Nourse Farm is just about over now. I spent today packing hay over dormant strawberry fields, chainsawing up storm-trees for firewood and sorting out turkeys in the cooler. Man alive its been a long year, I'll say that much.
All the fields were harrowed under months ago (by yours truly) and the rye cover crop we planted in October has grown thickly green. Everything is all packed up, pruned out and ready to weather the winter. Big mounds of scott's pine boughs fill up the greenhouse. We are polishing off a few longstanding wreath orders before the boss, John, goes in for double leg surgery two weeks from now. Everything has long since wound down and if I didn't know better I'd expect to be let go any day now. But the beat goes on.
It can be too easy getting down and blue this time of year. The fields are done and the store is an empty cemetery. Mike has taken over the kitchen, everyday he cranks out holiday jam and pies. I face up the remaining outdoor work alone. Meanwhile, John talks endlessly about next year, I haven't quite broached the subject of me leaving yet. And so it goes I guess. The sunsets have been
fine the past few weeks and the last cold shower left a full arching double rainbow. Lucy, the dog, makes good company. Blessings are counted and codified.
Looking back, it was a good season. The weather was kind and everything grew. The strawberry crop failed-- all the high-tech plastic wrap broiled the roots alive. The blueberries exploded into the best harvest on record. The raspberries did about average, but then fruit flies (lingering over from last year's mild-winter) maggotted up the works. The summer tomatoes were gorgeous, but blight took the entirety of the fall heirloom crop. John's impending surgery hung over most of the season-- he's was in pain to the point of distraction. 3 different plantings of summer squash and zuke were killed by the old man before he stopped carpet spraying herbicide. 10 rows of beans were annihilated by deer (and I warned him!) because he forgot to buy a fence. But this stuff happens. For everything that went wrong, many things went right. It's just a shame, as so much of the wrong didn't need to happen.
But it's best to reinforce the positives, gotta ring the bell when it is due-- the pumpkins came out perfect,
the onions/potatoes grew heavier than the stones, the peppers were just
dandy-- the basil, herbs and melon came out top notch. And I nearly
forgot about our the brassicas-- our broccoli/cauliflower grew 1' foot wide and rolled steady from June-October. Not too shabby at all.
It's hard looking back over the time and trying to pick out moments-- I can see why I used to write this daily. Too much gets lost in memory. But I sure as hell remember two days.
Old Rudolpho's last day: Maybe if you're reading this you remember the man. The 73 year old patriarch of the Guatemalan family that works with us each summer. He's a saint and killer by the same breath. The man got drunk on that morning, absolutely sideways-in-a-field. So at nine o'clock on a warm day early in October, we climbed the hill to pick greens. Admittedly, I am a naive man and didn't think much about any of it.
My name is Chris. But the Guatemalans call me Christian-- Rudolpho doesn't like the name, so he calls me Roldinyo. That day when he screamed Roldinyo I just looked up and waved, then went back to picking kale. But he kept yelling. It was only as I walked closer, maybe at fifty yards off, that I could see his hands were covered-dripping with blood. He'd cut long and deep through his hand, as though he got halfway and decided why not keep on going. I tied my bandana tight as a tourniquet around his wrist. But Rudolpho just stood there and grinned. We shook hands, and I was caked arm to arm in his blood. We fished through the empty vodka nips in his pocket and found one full-- Rudolpho bit off the stem and poured it onto the cut. Daniel, who has one blank eye, strolled over and we stood there together as the old man bled onto the beets. We just stood around, like idiots. Daniel speaks English and translated-- Rudolpho says you're a good man.
I sent Rudolpho to Mike in the kitchen, who cleaned and patched him up. The old man disappeared for the rest of the day. I hear he was found hours later, asleep on a hay bale in back of the barn. The next day he flew home to Guatemala.
John's Advice: I remember this day. For personal reasons, and that's all you get. Max the old foreman came to visit. He has moved down to live with his long time girlfriend in New York City, time was kind to him and he got a job with an experimental research farm in Westchester county. Max and I used to butt heads working together, but during my own time in New York we'd meet up weekly to share noon beers and swap rumors of employment. He came that day to visit and check up on things. It was late September and the CSA was booming. John and I sat around shooting wind with the guy as the afternoon wore on.
At sunset Max went to hike the fields and see all we'd done this year. I sat with John on two stools and there was a deep yellow-pink horizon-- we sat quiet-- he was turning things over heavily in his head. Finally John said, You know why he does all that in the city? (Nodding way off to Max's shadow in the peach orchard) Cause he loves this girl. And Chris. Love is rare. Real love is rare. Nail it down tight if you're ever lucky enough to find it. A lot of shit can happen in a life: affairs, mistakes, one night stands, lots of things. But none of that matters, not worth mentioning or getting into a mess over. But Chris, love is rare. Nail it down or you'll regret that long as you live. That was it, and John didn't say another word about it.
I left to the woods and had a heart stroke. I drank that night.
So this business goes on. It was a year, thick and certain. Over beers in the morning, a few fellows and I agreed-- it's been a thick year, may there be few like it. But there were beautiful things done, and damn it another of my "forty tries" has been knocked from the life bank. Another year less.
New work is coming, different work. I've sweated over this farm for three years now-- another year doing the same chores on the same land might snuff me out for good. I love the job, but I have started to do it for the wrong reasons. It's time to trudge on again.
Maybe I'll be back on sometime.
But either way-- Take it easy